What to write about today. I wanted to get my writing skills going so I can flow better when I try to work on some lyrics today. Today was normal, but there's a part of everyday that really sticks out or stays with me until I sleep. It's so hard to force yourself to backup and look at the bigger picture. So many things in life are at conflict and the balance is so difficult to find. I want to back up, chill, and look at my life from as far away off as I can. Where am I headed? What have I gone through so far? But then in life, you must look at all the details of things to appreciate it more. Details can be a good and bad thing. It's so easy to get caught up in just waking up. Waking up, and doing everything just like you did 7 days ago. And then I try to do things different or break up my day, but then I remember I have responsibilities to take care of. Its such a weird thing.
I turned 20 a couple days ago. I was a different birthday that's for sure. Most people didn't know, but that's partly because of my personality. I don't really like telling everyone "Hey! Its my birthday soon!" and all that. If they know, they know. Its just weird that every year you get older when your me, and you don't tell people, the less people know. Of course a lot of the day time was spent relaxing, and thinking about everything that was happening a year ago. Forever I'll know that when I turn a year older, so does my ex. After I got over thinking about that, I had a great time out getting sushi with friends and hanging out afterwards. It barely turned out to a good day. Well, nothing to deep today. I have thoughts but not feelin like writing them down.